We are moving in 2 days. Moving has always created anxiety for me. In the past 7 years, Matt and I have never stayed in the same residence for more than a year. And here we go again. This time, I am thoroughly feeling it. I’m tired of having to go through the same routine, but at the same time, thankful that things are finally starting to fall into place–slowly.
Mostly all of my stuff is in boxes. I am looking for things to no avail. So I decided to sit down and blog about it instead of going crazy in my head. Over the past year in our current apartment, we have gone through some major changes. I very much look forward to starting over (again), but I appreciate the times that we have spent here. I know that moving isn’t going to change everything, but it will lend the opportunity to make positive changes. Ollie can’t wait to play in the “big yard”. It’s the little things that I am excited about. Like the fact that we can finally have a grill again. And I can sit outside in a hammock with beautiful trees to shade from the hot sun. We can get a slip-n-slide for the ridiculously excruciating summer months instead of being cooped up in a top floor apartment. We will have wood floors and a big tile kitchen that Matt finally gets to decorate in London theme. We will have Crystal living with us to hang out with Ollie. The list could go on forever.
I go into this new move with much gratitude. The first time I walked onto the premises, I felt healing. This will be a healing home. I don’t know what that means exactly, but I know that it will be a safe place to just ‘be’.
Moving means a lot of different things, but this time it will be on purpose. It’s time to say goodbye to certain aspects of the past and move forward with a positive direction. This year is going to be special and unique.
Instead of stressing about where my toenail clippers are, I will just take a deep breath and know that everything will fall into place eventually. I’d rather enjoy the last couple of days here rather than fight it. I’m so tired of fighting.