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Trauma Touch Therapy™

Posted in Life, Past, Present with tags , , , , , , , , , , , , , on June 10, 2011 by Shea Atkin

DEFINITION:

Trauma Touch Therapy™ is an advanced therapeutic certification program for those already proficient in bodywork.  The program consists of 100 hours of training: Level I, 50 hours in integrative techniques and fundamentals, a Level II 50 hour Externship.  Many TTT™ students enroll in this training to come to a sense of completion with their own healing process; thus recycling their trauma, turning the disadvantage of their pasts into something of value.  TTT™ training is an intense healing process in itself, requiring students to deepen, within themselves, their sense of authenticity and integrity.

Trauma Touch Therapy™ is a bodywork modality designed to meet the needs of clients with trauma or abuse histories.  This innovative work enables the client to discover the gift within the wound.  Trauma Touch Therapists™ encourage client empowerment and choice, which aids the client in accessing their somatic issues in a safe, nuturing environment.  The work is done on a very individual basis and almost always interfaces with the psychotherapeutic process.  Client traumas include: physical abuse, mental/emotional abuse, sexual abuse, holocaust/post-war traumas, environmental traumas, surgery trauma, PTSD, auto accidents, physical injury and childhood traumas.

This program is approved and regulated by the Colorado School of Higher Education, Division of Private Occupational Schools.  Trauma Touch Therapy™ is owned and operated by the Colorado School of Healing Arts. Trauma Touch Therapy™ was developed under the direction of Chris Smith and is offered solely by the school.  All rights reserved.

Unblocked

Posted in Past, Present with tags , , , , , , , , , on October 22, 2010 by Shea Atkin

“Numb to the point of acceptance,

As I breathe in the breath that has been predetermined –

I sit in the solidtude of myself –

Wondering if the answer will ever truly materialize.

Seeking completion to the puzzle with most of the pieces that have been lost.

I cry out with a whisper that has been muted by our surrounding culture,

Prohibiting life to be aware that the soul has been drained by oversaturation.

Vivid flashbacks of a life never experienced –

I find solace in something that I cannot describe.

Longing for a time of eternal peace although unable to offer the sacrifice of surrender –

I find myself – stuck.” -Shea 2010

Pathway to Enlightenment

Posted in Past with tags , , , , on October 12, 2010 by Shea Atkin

“Give me something to hold onto

Like what I already have

But am too stubborn to realize

Why can’t I have it all figured out?

Every time I think I have a clue

I find out that I have taken two steps back

It is a vicious cycle

Day in and day out

Sleeping becomes tiring

Work seems to be a luxury

I need something tangible

Physical love is temporary

Emotional love, the same

Spiritual love does not die

And I pursue it the least

Makes no sense at all

We are stupid humans

Aren’t we?” – Shea 2002

Forgiveness

Posted in Past with tags , , , , , , , , , , , on October 8, 2010 by Shea Atkin

Rape

Nov 15, 2002

“Raped my body

Mutilated my soul.

I fear not what you have done to me

But what I have done since you left

I am no longer scared of what I feared the most

It has already been done–

And only the invisible scars remain

Hollow feelings and vacant expressions are all I can offer

Who am I really?

22 years old and just now remembering my 16th year.

Proof is only visible when you choose to see it

Vicious flashbacks of a monster

Reminds me of why I was always scared of them

Torn clothes and flesh

Left only for me to retrieve in due time

Ripped emotions out of my body

Restored only with one hand on my stomach

I find myself in a peaceful place

Happy to be out of the Hell that I once was in

The comfort of not knowing would have been my ultimate demise

Sanity resides when denial is destroyed

Forgiving but not forgetting is my goal

Who can ever be free of pain?

We are all called to merely help those along the way

Our reward is ourselves being helped along with them

Rage has departed and compassion has entered

Understanding is what made that possible

I shall sleep soundly

Knowing that my faith will get me where I need to be.”

-Shea

Forgiveness can only exist if there is a reason for it.  For years, I tried to figure out why this happened to me.  The answer came in the form of forgiveness.

I have to wonder what must have happened to my attacker to make him commit such a vicious crime?  I pray for him and hope that he has found truth.

I would be trapped if I continually was victimized by this situation.

I have been able to share my story with so many troubled teens (and adults).

We all just want to know that we are not alone in our struggle.

Honestly, I don’t know if I would even go back and change it if I could.  I am so grateful for the people that God has brought into my life because of it.

The bigger crime would be if I let it dominate and run my life–so I choose forgiveness.